Zhu Zhu wo aii nii

2011-02-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i last post, right? I shall come back to post again.
A lot of things have been happening.
Love, is making turn round and round. Sick and tired of it.
Life, making me feel not worth spending.
How i hope he is still at my side to support me through everything.
Sighs, things is over means over. We can never make it continue.

2010-12-16T00:16:00.003+08:00

Counselling was fun yesterday, had adventure. Cool, i am proud of myself.

Today when to LOT1 and meet Joel they all, fun. But i didn't buy much things.

Don't know what to buy, no mood see everything also no mood.

Sigh, bored day. Joel got hit by me so many time. Ass. Haha,

but at least i enjoy. And Eric is like so freaking stupid.

I ask him why he so emo, his answer is cause i see you emo so i accompany you emo. -,-

LMAO!!! But thanks Joel And Eric. Plus those who did message me today.

2010-12-13T13:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow waking up at 8am, oh my dear. I am so tired.
Who can give me morning calls? Hope i could sleep tonight.
Die die also must sleep eh or else i can't wake up.
Hey sis (Samella), I decided what to wear le. See you tomorrow.
I am not wearing long pants. The weather must be very hot in the afternoon.
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I have been yawning for hours but i can't sleep.
I didn't get a good sleep last night. I want to eat sleeping pills le lah.
Anyway, good day today.
All the best Stupid for your exam, do take care of yourself.
Don't too stress up, when you talk last night you are still too stress up man.
Relax your mind, try your best and smile everything will be fine. :)
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Thanks for reading, do enjoy your day readers. :)

2010-12-11T18:53:00.003+08:00

I hated people that copy my things.
And there is a guy copy my picture in blog, post it on his.
Starts to be like me saying i updated my blog and write in facebook.
But nevermind copy me means i got good ideas?
He make me hated him so much.
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Last night this guy text me ask me " Why my poker cards missing so many?"
Cause he put it with me long ago, and he woke me up in my good sleep,
tell me he want come my house to take the cards.
And i told him a lot of it is missing, but he just want to come.
I say can other day cause i am sleeping but he keep say want today.
And scolded me for his missing cards, i already buy one back for him.
What else do you want? Can you stop irritating me?
Stop asking me want chat at midnight and want message?
Stop asking me what i doing. Don't text and call me.
Fucker, you are making me fuck up everytime.

2010-12-11T00:13:00.003+08:00

Watched "LET ME IN" Its so nice, saw Kapo. Has been nag till like don't know what.
Butwhat he say has his point. I know they treat me always like their own sister,
but why i became like this was cause of Ah Korr no longer outside to teach me.
I know he will be very disappointed in me if he heard it, but i will change.
Like i promise others and for my gan korr's, i will be a good girl now.
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Kkies, i am so crazy today. Bored to death eh, my shoulder so suan.
Today a person make me so piss off.
Hey if you see this " You are the one that diao me first hor?"
I talk to you nicely on phone yesterday, but i am elder than you.
What kind of respect i gave you, but you doesn't even give me respect.
Fine! Don't find me problem and i won't find you, if you want play doesn't mean i can't.

2010-12-10T03:45:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time i last update right? Too many things happening.
But will be back to post everyday? Haha.
Posted photo to let my readers know how i have been recently.
Recently, i am getting fatter but mood getting better.
He left me but at least i get stronger now.
He hated me just because of some small reason that everyone didnt say anything about it.
In fact, they are saying that at least i did this shows how much he actually love me.
Nevermind, its already over. Get over it le. Must smile everyday then i wont look ulgy.
Gonna end my post. write tomorrow. I want COMMENTS LOTS LOTS.

2010-09-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

In a relationship like what you have said,

we love each other we can last long but not forever.

I admit i broke up with you with a reason.

But not unreasonable,

this is me my way to do my things and handle it.

Find this song [Huan Zi - xin tong]

I can't say our relationship last long,

but have you ever think what i want and what i don't like?

Have you ever try to understand what kind of boyfriend i really want.
Sorry i need you to understand after this things happen.

Hope you think it, cause i already know what i want le.

I will be waiting for you!!!!

2010-09-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

2010-09-06T00:44:00.003+08:00

Darlink loves loves forever.

2010-08-29T22:21:00.004+08:00

2010-08-28T20:19:00.002+08:00

190820100326 - Forever mine!

Maybe we don't meant to be together.
Cause we are far a part.

2010-08-25T04:15:00.002+08:00

My past photo.

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I guess its a new start, but the feeling doesn't go away.
I miss how the feel it was, i am forgetting a bit of it le.
But it seems like it coming back now.

2010-08-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

TERENCE & CHARMAINE.
It been days i didnt post my blog.
Life still like how it was. But lots of things happening.
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Stop all your lies, i get enough and you are take more lies to cover your previous lies.
Just give it a rest lah. Everything let it be just like this.
You don't have to lie to me, cause i will accept everything that its the fact.
But not anymore lies. Cause i am getting tired and sick,
tired of your attitude, sick of your lies.

2010-08-19T16:03:00.000+08:00

Its the end to be everything.
It came to the end. Its forever gone.
But you are not in my heart, you are never gone.
Never going to be gone.

2010-08-15T10:50:00.002+08:00

It the only sorry i could say to him.
Terence Lee Min Hao, better dont say it out what i say.
I MISS HUBBY. I LOVE HUBBY. I WANT HUBBY. I HEART HUBBY.
Good-bye to everything the past, that fucker.

2010-08-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

Uploaded photo le. Today damn shag.
I am tired today. Having headache now.
Nice photo, hope everyone like this. =}
I going to sleep le. Night to everyone.
Sleep tight, sweet sweet dreams to HUBBY.

2010-08-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Mr Yeo SherHow, for the durian, sweet sweet de dont know what and xia pin.
Thanks to Baby ThongThong to cheer my mood up.
My mood sucks alot, Baby today got no bed to sleep cause his mother lock all the rooms.
He came home late thats why, have to sleep on the floor, ke lian de Baby.
But at the same time i laugh like siao like that.
Baby, have a good sleep alright. I miss you, photos tomorrow.
Sweet dreams to everyone, night. =}

2010-08-10T15:41:00.002+08:00

Life is getting harder then before. I am living very hard.
I breath hardly, i think hard.
Stand in my place just once and feel how i am feeling now.
I wasnt happy, i am trying to be who i am.
Dont give me a hard time. I am tired, seriosuly very tired.

2010-08-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

Its another new day.
I miss Thong Thong eh, thong thong rocks lah.
HAHA, Thong tahnks for everything eh today eh=}.
Boring day. Today had a long chat with Thong.
I feel better le, although modd is the same.

2010-08-06T12:43:00.003+08:00

........STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS........
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WHAT SHOULD THE ANSWER BE?
I seriously didnt think about that too much,
cause you should know why i am like this.
It still have the person in my heart,
i dont want to take you to recover thise wounds he gave me,
cause its unfair to you.
But life is unfair to me now,
i know time cures the wounds but my wounds,
has not be cured yet.
I thought i could recover already,
but when i think,
Sorry it even recover everything.
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Today, when school.
HOT is the only word i can say,
everyone is in the hall, the hall isn't very big lor.
Smaller then my primary Hall.
I am sweating all over my body,
not even enough tissue to use, Zhi Kai buy so many also no use lor.
My whole body is damn dirty like HELL lor.

2010-08-04T12:55:00.003+08:00

Life for me is like a dream, i am tired then have a good sleep,
i will find the world, like how i find you.
But everything has past the nightmires you gave me,
the sweet dreams you give me.
The lies you told me, those days i saw your smile.
Everything has past, i woke up i found something that i can be happy.
But all i guess is something GOD want me to learn how to stand up when i fall.
And i ever thought of everything can dream again,
cause i miss you just so much.
I miss those days you ever smile at me.
I just cry so much cause i miss you, but i dream cause i want those times to come back.
And everyone beside me wont change, like Zhu Zhu i didnt want him to be like now,
but nevermind it has over, i just have to live with what i have,
what i am, where i were.

2010-08-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

So ke lian right? Which idiot was that who step it???? Wish you would have a fucking bad day.
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You regreted to leave but you have already done it,
it cant just what you want you will have.
Teacher told me, " Charmaine, why so many hatred in your heart?"
I didnt reply, she ask me, " Why you cant let go everything?"
I didnt reply, she tell me " Everything have to let it be the past must let go."
All i answer was, not everything can let go.
If can i wont have to live in this kind of world, that only brings me things i hated,
is not that easy to let go everything, even just one stuff it cant let go.
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Sorry, i thought i could let you go. But in fact, i am not letting go.
I seriously need to let it go le, cause i know you wont come back,
and i know you dont love me like what you have send to me a message in the past.
I cried that day, cause i was looking at the past message,
but nevermind i last look cause i have to delete it so that it wont remind me about you.
Actually i last thought was what should i do to get you mine?
But i decided the best way i wont feel hurting, tired,
the only way is to say Good-Bye to the past, and let go.
New life , new day, new week, new month, new smile.

2010-08-01T14:32:00.004+08:00

Singapore Northland Netball Players, [Jennifer] On court. NetBall Rocks.

Had photo in school that day, Syahirah Rocks man. Hahas.

But my mood just sucks but had her there, she is like mad.

I thought my world would be a better place if you were here,

but i was wrong cause of you i get everything fucking things wrong.

Today was a fucking bored day, nothing to do.

Tomorrow still have to go back to school, it sucks man.

No phone to use so boring, OMG.

I feel like going to die better.

2010-07-31T20:32:00.003+08:00

Basketball rocks my life up side down man.

Life seriously sucks to the max, maybe its time i just go die better.

Everything i also in wrong everything i do de lah.

I didnt steal your money you say me,

i didnt steal youor cigg you say me.

Everything also me, are you both my parents?

No, you both sucks. I HATE YOU

2010-07-31T04:19:00.002+08:00

Maybe this kind of life wasn't what i really want the life.
Or maybe this kind of life dont suit me.
I hated the way you are this days, i dont even feel like talking to you.
The place you are in my heart is getting to the lowest,
and others is coming up.
I am trying to give a damn to it, but it wasn't so easy.
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Boy, I guess i know you wont give me an answer back de right?
If you find what you really want i will give my bless to you,
but if you didnt just hope you find one soon.
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School,
just sucks alot, hated this class, hated this life, hated people.
Transfer is the best way eh.
I just feel that i am totally lost in this class, is like i have no one there anymore.
Like him that i wish you were there, but you didn't.
BYE--BYE

2010-07-28T15:09:00.002+08:00

Had a good chat with friends but had a bad day in school.
I hated this kind of life, i think it gonna change everything.
My life, got lots of diffirent things happening.
It will be better if you are in my life, my world, what i really needed was,
your hug, your shoulder, your kiss, your smile, your hand in mine,
the way you look at me, i miss those days, and i miss you everything.

I am standing up now, but its not fully up, i miss my life with you,
i miss your voice, like how i miss you that much.
But i gonna say goodbye to it, cause what i know is that you wont come back to me anymore.
Like how much i wanted you to come back you wont,
if you dont have the plan to come back once again,
let's just end, this school give me good memories, but gaved me a life that i dont want,
i trust those words you say.

2010-07-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow its just something that i am scared of,
maybe GOD will tell us where we should be where we are.
Where we must be friends or lover or enemy, Who knows, GOD is the one who know.
I seriously miss those days my dear, maybe we are fated.
I just wish, this relationship wont end.
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Sorry for the late post today, cause wasn't able to use the computer.
Did nothing today had Science Test today, i surely get a U-grade de.
Today is seriously very cold, everyone is wearing jacket.
Had some problems, my mood seriously very down, had mood swing.
But i am trying to have a big smile.
Thong Thong say my smile very nice, but i dont think i can do it.
Nevermind came home was seriously very tired, had a rest,
woke up just now, eat le, watch television, talk on the line with Ah How,
had a good chat, thanks eh. Night people

2010-07-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

Zhu, Xxian-
Maybe you guys no need me this friend anymore, cause you guys find new friends right?
Maybe what i say is right, Kai, Xian dont blame me for saying all this,
cause that all that i felt.
Xue Yan-
Like what you have said you're right, i have already prepare for the worst.
Cause i wouldn't put hopes in him anymore.
I really felt why should i am so good t him, but what i get back was what he dont want.
Once he choose to leave he will never come back to me,
maybe i put too much hope so all i get back was disappoint.
Xin Zhu-
Cheer up, he seriously dont worth your tears, i know who i am to tell you.
Cause you wont know how pain i was when i was dump by him,
but nevermind since its over then let it over barh.
Dont keep hold on cause you will be the one who is in pain.

2010-07-25T17:32:00.003+08:00

Its just in the story right?
In the first place i should have let it go, i am seriously piss off
and tired of it le, just this time.
Let everything be like this then, if this is your choice i have nothing to say.
We still have to walk, but why do we meet?
Its happening everytime, i thought everything will be fine.
I am waiting.

2010-07-24T22:40:00.003+08:00

He once rocks in my life, and he once give me something that i think i am everything to him.
He once show me how much he care about me,
he once show me what i am in his life, he once tell me he love me and show me how much he dont wish to lost me. But i didnt go in, but he still treat me good,
but soon the feeling become no longer the same, 24June we ended to be stranger.
How i seriously hope to get back to the past but too bad.
Now since we are friends then jiu be good friend barh.
My heart had someone that i shouldn't have, cause i once told you i will wait for you.
But now i am sorry maybe someone is replacing your place,
or though i am waiting but the time has past.
So i need to walk by my own when you wasn't around.
Every night i wondering who my heart really belongs to,
who i am falling for, your arms are no longer there anymore.
I am falling down again, when ever i see you it remind me the past.

2010-07-24T14:35:00.002+08:00

I bet i am nothing to you, i just cant wait to hear your voice,
and be with you. But your heart is not here, and you rather hurt me then hurting her.
Somemore, i am treating you someone special, and the end i get back form you was
something i dont want to have something she have.
I just want you to show some care for me,
I have alot of words to tell you, but too bad i bet its too late and you are not mine.
No matter how much i pull you back but i just cant.
Have you ever think of my feeling?
When ever i am in the worst moment you wasn't there.
I just hope you would sayang me just a second but you cant,
No matter how much i she bu de you will just leave.
When you think of me then you will contact me,
i should just listen to Natsuda, let go of you cause i will end up hurt more.
How good to hear your voice, have you ever wonder how good in your life if i wasn't there right?
I guess it will be the best for you, I am leaving it will be better for you le.
If i am not leaving you dont have to contact me too cause i will not reply,
and as for if you see me i will just walk pass, cause i rather i dont know you at all,
at least my pain will just go away.
Good-Bye 1~week time.

2010-07-23T10:27:00.002+08:00

The moment that will never forget.

2010-07-22T19:27:00.001+08:00

Is the fact that i am say dumb dumb.

2010-07-22T00:19:00.002+08:00

I am happy to see her facebook is single,
but i hate it to see someone sad, why you guys have to always be like this?
And you guys just dont have any feelings,
yes i want to be your girlfriend but why you cant last the relationship with her?
I hated the way you guys hurt girls, but just can be happy,
but we cant, cause you guys just are too muc.h of everything.
Cheer up Yi Zhuang

2010-07-21T15:23:00.003+08:00

If next time you ask me an question, i cant reply you.
I guess you will know why i cant reply.
Is it possible to be together???
But i guess we are impossible cause i once told you why.

2010-07-20T14:47:00.004+08:00

Miss the days in white room.
Miss the days we get crazy, miss those time we were so close.
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Gonna be sick today, tired and just now play with rain so fun.
Ernest, sorry eh. I am seriously in a rush so cant chat much =}
I am going to sleep le, i miss you Dumb Dumb.
Loves everyone.

2010-07-20T02:17:00.003+08:00

=STUPID DUMB DUMB=
I'm Still Waiting For You.
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Stupid Dumb Dumb, how long has it been when we last contact?

Haha, now then remember me arh?

I miss you so much, must take good care of yourself when i am no longer around.

Just now talk de stuff see how first, cause i am choosing whether to change anot.

Just take good care of yourself at the mean while. =}

2010-07-19T20:56:00.003+08:00

I have shout up with everything, if just cause of her you would'nt contact me this words,
You did it for hurting my so deep.
Whenever, now i choose. I guess to be alone will be better.
I would'nt hurt myself anymore. I just feel like jumping down the blk.
Cause its the best way to let everything off.

2010-07-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

Its just the life i hate so much, why life had to go though so much that make everyone painful,
why God want me to be here today, but not letting me dead when i was born,
i seriously dont know why i have to get so hurt deeply.
If you dont have a little love to me, just tell me then letting me to wait.

2010-07-18T14:29:00.003+08:00

We're really over this time round right.

I guess it is true. Bet your world is waiting for you.

2010-07-16T20:55:00.004+08:00

=KAIRONG=

He is my AH ZHU,

he is good and dunn ever try to bully him

or euu wil eat my PAU.

Hees, but he is too good to others,

tat may be bully.

He is realli a good guy.

=IZZAT=

He is my sister, good person.

Aiya, he is good but dunn treat him bad,

cuz he will treat euu like how euu treat him,

or more worst=BBBB

=JUNXIAN=

He is my Darling, he is handsome.

And good to others still no girlfriend oh.

Heees, Darling see i so good =}

=ERNEST=

He is good oh,

but can be and he get angry easily.

=JERLIN=

Jieh Jieh very chio de hor,

dunn try to bully or make fun of her,

or euu will get it from me.

=ANGELA=

She is good when you treat her good,

and i once had problem with her in the past.

But we are okay now.

=SHERMAINE=
I use to hate her in the past,

but she is really good,

cute and funny.

=NATSUDA=

This girl here is weird,

but she is very good to others.

But when she get fierce is [BYEBYE]

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Mood so bad tis days,

mood swing easily.

Hated tis days lor, dunno watt to do

2010-07-15T18:06:00.002+08:00

Everything from the past have past by us and watever we have in the past,

and watt we have now is totally we diff.

I miss euu BoyBoy, could we be tgt? everything happening around me,

i cant stand up le, will euu pull me up wen i fall?

Cann we really be tgt?

I miss everything we didnt had, i miss euu alot.

2010-07-14T15:38:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU SO MUCH, saw your message was very happy.
But too bad me and you is impossible, cause what you have make it impossible.

When i need someone to be there but i cant text you.

Cause as our relationship now is not even friend i guess.

I am trying to leave without you, but it just cant my tears i dropping.

I am trying so hard to be happpy, but i am so sick.

I am very very tired of any relationship.

You once say this "ILOVEYOU".

But now to me is all rubbish thta you are talking cause of what you have.

And you make me want to say i wont believe you anymore.

2010-07-13T20:29:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU, LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE IN THE PAST.
I LOVE YOU, LIKE WE WERE IN THE PAST.
YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY FOR ME.

2010-07-12T15:36:00.004+08:00

I am deafening myself from getting hurt.
I kept silence cause i didnt wann others to noe how i realli feel.

Quiet, i dunn wann to share the pain.

Screaming like hell so maybe my heart wont feel tat pain.

I am trying to let euu noe i love euu.

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2010-07-11T14:49:00.002+08:00

Can smile, laugh, play, crazy.
Doesnt mean i am happy, i cann be having fun with you.
And "insertname", dunn tink tat me and him is no longer stead,
euu can replace me. Please lah, go look into the mirror, even my dog is prettier den euu.
I noe i have no right to judge euu, but is the fact tat i am saying.
But euu tink he will care about euu?
Please lah, he wont even see euu de lor.
Like walk pass him he wont even rmb or even go look.
So dunn tink euu are watt people like the model lah.

2010-07-09T00:52:00.003+08:00

Its a new day a new start a new life.

Is it i choose not to let go of euu.

I am still waiting, today is 16 days past le.

I dunn have euu, i dunn have frens, i dunn have watt i realli wann.

So many things is happening around me, tired.

Feeling like giving up the world, giving up everything tat i cann give up.

Everytime i am tinkiin, i ask people dunn do tis do tat,

let go, give up, but i, my self cant do it.

Its juz so hard to get all tis things done.

But watt has done is done, watt has happen has happen,

i juz have to holdon to the memories tat i rmb wen i was with euu.

Hanging on the line wasn't so easy as euu all tink.

2010-07-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

I am trying to noe the ans, trying to win ur heart back.

But if the ans still the same, tis time i wont wait anymore,cuz i am tired.

If cann of cuz i wann to get a new life den everything tat is happening now.

Seriously, is still the same tinkin i have tat the ans is the same.

I love euu like always have.

Its ur choice now to choose,

watt the ans will be.

2010-07-03T19:59:00.003+08:00

Like us, there are no forever. Like it says forever is a lie.
Like between us, is oly HELLO & GOODBYE.
Are we realli over? Why wont euu juz giving me another chance?
We are totally diff from the past, i am getting more tired le.
Could i juz lend ur shoulder ferr tis month, and taking care of euu?
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Today -----
Wen ti change my hair style, is like totally diff from my past hair style.
Sure go back skool alot people say me de.

2010-07-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

My heart has been more worst now, juz cuz of ur messages.
Have euu ever noe how much euu meant to me?
Have euu ever noe how much i realli love euu?
Is it watt i owe euu tat i have to get all tis rubbish.
Have euu noe how much it actually hurt tat much where euu didnt noe at all.
Nvm, i tink we are realli over, but i will be waiting.

2010-06-27T00:57:00.003+08:00

Hey, people i am back to post.

yesterday i tink i did ntn, keep cant sleep, cant eat much.

I miss him so much cant stop tinkin of him, hais.

Yesterday 4.30am help my mother frens to give out news paper,

my fren came to help me too.THANKS EH.

I am seriously very stress tis days, its the same thing.

Hais, today sunday le. TMR SKOOL, it sucks.

How i realli hope euu were here with me to go though all the bad days and good.

I am waiting, i will be waiting.

Hubby, i am waiting.

I will wait,

i hope a day euu would com back.

I wann to continue tis relationship,

IMY & ILY.

2010-06-25T04:40:00.003+08:00

I cant let go le, i love euu over the limit.

Even we aren't together now, but i will still wait ferr euu.

Now i noe how much euu meant to me, if euu wasn't anything,

i wont cry ferr so many hours.

How i wish it will continue tis relationship, i am seriously in pain now.

Once i read all the messages euu send to me, my tears would juz drop down.

I am tinkin of euu now, i missin euu so much, and i realli love euu.

I will wait ferr euu de.

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Today, did ntn eat at home, i eated a meal nia.

Den sleep wake up shower den i already cry like hell le,

wen to drink i am like so sick, i juz cant sleep cryin.

Please dunn hurt me le, I will wait ferr euu.

Hubby, i choose to wait.

My heart is realli in pain,

Cann we continue tis relationship?

I realli miss euu alot.

2010-06-24T10:40:00.002+08:00

Hello i am back to post, tis photo was wen Aishan birthday tat day.
Sorry eh i leave very early. So weird i oly chinese there. HAHAHAHA.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARIUS.
One year older le, hope euu realli noe how to tink watt is right and watt is wrong.
Enjoy ur birthday and ur chalet.
Sorry eh no present ferr euu, =BBBBBBBBBBBBBB.
Hees, here wishing euu all the best. =}
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I am so boring, skool goin to reopen le, i dunn tink i will be goin barh?
Dunn feel like goin to skool so tired to wake up at 5am everyday.
OMG, i miss Hubby so much tat i cant wait to see him.
But everything between me and him is no longer the same le.
Everything has change like the weather.

2010-06-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

Its quite long i didnt update le, I have been cryin ferr tis days.
Thanks to people who cheer me up.
Terence, thanks alot, i noe euu and Mao Mao care about me.
But remember watt i told euu people dunn do it.
I noe watt is goin on but tis is watt i cann oly do.
My life is like tat, i cant do anything. I will oly be there if he nid me.
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I uploaded some new songs, it will be nice.
To: AHTEAR,
La0q0nG, I miss euu, he didnt bully me dunn worry.
I am fine, he is good to me. I am living well now.
Rmb muz contact me kkies, ILOVEYOU. MISSES.

2010-06-19T17:36:00.002+08:00

Time past, euu change dunn say i change cuz i didnt.
Euu change to someone i feel tat i am a stranger to euu.
Do euu nid time and we could go back to the past?
I tot euu realli love me, but i dunn tink so.
Dun use my love ferr euu to hurt me, euu should noe how weak i am.
Have euu ever ask how am i today? have euu ask me wake up text euu?
All tis is me who asked euu. Has the reletionship betwee us ended?
No, but it juz seems it haven.
Have euu ever tink of me, if one day one of ur message come i will be very happy.
Even if it is one message, but every message is me who started the message,
den euu will continue juz a few and stop.
Do euu noe how i feel in my heart? I realli feel it too tired.
Am i suppose to give euu time or let everything end is better?
Cann euu at times tink about my feelin but no urs everytime.
Which person love to be hurt in a reletionship?

Why cant i juz let go?
Why cant euu be more like others?
Why do i nid to suffer so much?
Why its not me who wann tis to happen?
But i am the one suffering?

2010-06-18T00:19:00.004+08:00

Its the 3RD month tat we spend together.

Tis 3rd months means alot. Everyday put in more love in tis relationship.

But it get tired wen quarrel, but euu have never been angry at me before.

Alt i dunno if i am in the 1st of ur heart but i noe euu love me.

Tis 3rd month is how much we are hangin there to get the result.

I cant read ur heart but i cann feel watt euu are tinkin.

Hubby, tis 3months i realli realli enjoy, and hope we cann go futher.

Life juz so wonderful wen it euu to be in my life.

But it sucks wen everything gettin worst.

ILOVEYOU I ALWAYS HAVE.

Tis is watt i wanted but its hard,

to hang on here.

ILOVEYOU,

and hoping it gettin better.

2010-06-17T03:48:00.003+08:00

Everything i have was a cut in my heart.
And living without is better den living with it.
Its juz so pain to live with it.
So i chosse to leave it aside and live without it.
Life to me juz sucks so much tis days.
Cann i realli talk to anyone?
I am now worry about my xinn gan, are euu fine my dear xin gan?
Hoping to see ur message asap, i miss euu alot.
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I am goin to skool in 3hrs more le.
Having trainin, my match with AI is on the 21st of tis month means is
on the coming monday.
All the best ferr B & C DIVISION. Jia you, sec 1s play well and play hard.=}

2010-06-13T15:54:00.003+08:00

I noe tis photo very blurr, but i miss Hubby alot.
Left with 4days is 3MONTH.
MISSES HIM REALLI LOTS, LOVES EUU.
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11.06.10----
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Wen to play basketball in skool,
den wen ferr trainin oly 6 sec1 came??
Sec2 & 3 wen down to help,
Coach bought curry puff, poato and still got other type of it.
OMG i eated 3 of it. So fatt man.
Nvm, helped mother to take things home den wen ferr gym,
plus swimmin, so tired. Reached home sleep.
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12.06.10----
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Actually needed to meet Ernest to sentosa.
5.45am at Northpoint mac, but i tot i wont be late,
ended up i reached sentosa at 10.10am.
Ended at 7.45pm. I am so tired.
Ernest and Xun Li, both idiot. Di siao me lah.
Wasn't in the good mood wen i had a call, fuck up cann?
I tinkin of alot of things..
VERY SORRY TO CAME LATE AND LEAVE EARLY.
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TODAY----
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Wake up, eat use computer watch show, ntn to do.
So boring. on the 16 of june have my trainin match is on the 21st of june.
But no one will be comin to see my match. sian lor.
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15 JUNE -HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIM LENG.
15 JUNE - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SEAN.
16 JUNE - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NATSUDA.
WHO'S ELSE BIRTHDAY COMING?
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2010-06-07T06:02:00.003+08:00

HOPE TIS WEDDING OF MY TEACHER, LAST FOREVER, FOREVER, FOEVER....
Here wishin euu all the best ferr tis wedding, faster have a BABY. HAHAHAS.
God bless euu always. congulates.
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Now goin to prepare go meet XueYan den go eat.
Meetin at mac at 7.45am. Den goin ferr trainin till 11.30am.
Ernest will be waitin ferr me.den go eat i guess, if i tired den will go home lor.
TIRED TIRED TIRED, didnt get a good sleep juz now, turn and turn and turn,
juz cant sleep, hais, dunno watt i was tinkin, mind was whole blank,
wanna go back to sleep but juz cant. WTF cann?

2010-06-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

No one realli noe about my past, and its better no knowin.
I dunno watt will happen in the future so i wont tink about it.

2010-06-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

The memories of the photo is in the phone, and i miss the day we were very close.
But it seems no matter how we were now, we will never go back to the past right.
I got everything euu say, and tink again and again. It juz have to be tis way.

2010-06-01T15:02:00.003+08:00

No matter how much euu have hurt me in the past or now,
I will take it as i dunno anything, so i could juz laugh wen euu say lame jokes.
I will smile wen i dunn wann other to worried,
And pretend ntn has happen.
I will cry like funny till i cry.
Everything has over so i tink euu have no feelin in ur heart anymore ritex?
But to me everything is still the same as watt euu told.
Cuz euu have already told me watt euu wann to say.

2010-05-31T20:06:00.003+08:00

Watt i have told euu on the 12 MARCH, realli change the best friendship to the worst.
16 MARCH, I told euu something where the ans ferr the day tmr euu dunn have to give me an ans, do euu tink i wann to say Be frens will be better?
The decided to say everything out, but euu change to be cold to me.
Feel so lonely wen i message euu and euu are always busy.
Euu always say will text me soon but did euu? NO, euu have never,
it was always me who start the fire. Wen i am bored i find euu, euu are busy. Nvm.
Wen i wann to find someone to say everything out, euu wasnt there, nvm.
Wen i was realli sad and cryin so hardly, were euu there?
Euu told me ur shoulder will always be there ferr me, wen i nid a listenin ear,
once i nid euu will listen, RIGHT? BUT NOW? I am seriously very disappointed.
Life juz sucks to the max, how i hope i cann cry out loud and everything will be over.
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TODAY, rotted at home.
Watchin a nice korean show, i finish watchin all le.
I wann buy the disc, i wann to watch. IS LIKE FUCKIN NICE CANN?
Nvm, sian lor at home ntn t0 do de.

2010-05-30T15:37:00.003+08:00

Everything it says here, i tink everyone left.
And i am the oly one living here.
The feeling tat is alone, it feels so cold.
1st may was the 1st message after 7 may, from 7may till now oly 42 message.
Euu always told me euu will me there wen ever i nid euu,
but now i tink everything is different from watt euu say.
We use to be so close in the past, but everything changed after my words.
Our life change, and now everything tat are beside me wasnt the very good fren i knew.
But everything has change juz like the season once its cold people change,
and once its hot, human change again and again.
I dunn tink i am the younger sister euu always care anymore.
We are juz like strangers now.
Wen ever i contact euu, euu are busy, we oly text ferr a few message.
Wen i am cryin, euu are always busy, so i didnt tell euu.
Euu will oly ask me to cheer up tats all, its diff from the past le.
Everything i realli hope it go back to the past.

2010-05-28T11:58:00.002+08:00

Love is worth the risk.
Its worth fighting ferr the one euu love, like how much euu have figth to get him.
I love the way i spended with euu.
I juz feel so happy no matter how pain it is i am still hanging on to it.

2010-05-26T15:39:00.002+08:00

Its watt i could say now, i am realli scared.

2010-05-22T14:07:00.002+08:00

Alot people fall ferr euu, but the thing i am happy is cuz euu choose me.
But till now i tink i haven realli heard tat words euu told me.
Life, Life, Life, Life, Life, Life, Life, Life, Life.
Why muz it always be like tis? Why muz all tis stuff become more diff from the past.
Why would i walk tis path? And choose tis way?
Will it be better tat time i didnt choose to do all tis stupid stuff.
Nvm, since i have choose tis path i will walk to the end and never goin to turn back.
The past hurts alot, but its good wen i get to noe someone tat i will never get,
wen all my effort i putted in, maybe juz not my luck.
Maybe i am someone tat cann be in the last group of his heart.
And 1st in someone heart.
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My sister stupid frens coming our house, WTF cann?
Cannot celebrate at own house, watt is our house BOOKING CHALET arh?
Brainless, and tat time my fren at my mother birthday drunk.
But euu all dunn like them dunn care lah, oso no one wanns euu all to like.
Plus who even wann to like euu all. Wattt kind of people is tis?
They dunn even noe my fren well cann?
Opps, my sister hated Claude, den?
He is my fren, and if euu dunn like den dunn like,
he got frens and i tink he no nid euu all tis fcukin people to like him.
Dunn judge a book without the cover.
I dunn like ur frens and tis is watt euu say to me, now tis words is back to euu.
Oly noe how euu say people wen euu are not even perfect to judge people.
Tink before euu say lah hor, watt kind of fuckin fren euu have.
And i noe i am not perfect to judge them, but tis is those words i will say back to euu, moron.

2010-05-21T18:04:00.002+08:00

The lies tat we are always talkin about is better to be lies in times.
Cuz the truth will oly hurt more den the lies.
How i realli hope the words euu told me was truth den lied.
Will it be better where i wont hurt so deep?
But watt has been said is over, juz dunn tink i may be better isit?
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I didnt use computer and so lazy to use so didnt post.
Anw TODAY,
didnt go skol not realli feelin well.
Around 2plus wen to meet JunHao, Esmonde, Jerone and Rasul.
Eat den go home called my mother den i go out to northpoint cai go 2tou den go home.
So boring at home cann? Got ntn to do.
I wann to go fishin.
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2010-05-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

I am trying to understand watti realli wann now and who i am.

I feel so stress tis days, how i realli hope someone was there.

I am tinkin and tinkin, my exam surely goin to fail till very badly,

as ferr some family problem, i realli ah gong cann come home faster.

Alt i use to tink ah gong very KPO and keep NAGGY,

but sometimes without him, i juz feel so weird,

I cant express the feelin but it is realli very weird.

How i realli hope Ah Gong cann faster come back home.

2010-05-14T05:39:00.002+08:00

I am crying like hell in the room, what was my thinking is "Will i still see you?"

I ask one of my friend, he say nothing is goin to happen.

But i am still tat afraid.

I tell myself not to think again, but i am crying.

I told myself that it won't be happening, but will the reality happen?

So i pray to GOD, and ask for all his help.

Before i go school, let me juz take a rest before i really will be crying.

GOD bless him will you.

2010-05-11T13:02:00.002+08:00

So SHERMAINE juz heck care how people tinks about euu.
Alt i use to hate euu in the past but now kkies le,
i tink euu oso noe ritex?
Hope everything is better now.
PASS UR EXAM WITH FLYIN COLOURS.
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Late ferr skool, den rush ferr my exam,
PAPER 1, 3 BLANKS answer. PAPER 2, 11 BLANKS answer.
Hopefully wont have scoldin, but i tink its impossible de lah.
MATHS ferr today, i gonna end my post.
GOOD LUCK FERR EUU GUYS EXAM MAN. =B

2010-05-09T18:10:00.003+08:00

I realli tink back to the past, alt its painful, but i finally realise oly wen everything is gone,
den i will realise. Or else i wont even care.
Will i lose Ah Gong soon and i dunn even treat him good now?
I am juz findin someone who i cann rest on the shoulder,
and someone who realli tink tat she/he will help me wen i nid help.
Life juz sucks to the max and skool sucks.

2010-05-08T15:59:00.003+08:00

I am too tired to stay, so i juz choose to go.
Life realli sucks to the max, i dunno who i am anymore,
i am totally like a diff person after everything, everything realli changin.
I still cant smile now, dunn have the mood to eat, i juz cant sleep well now a days.
Everything juz seems to change, anything would juz go back to the past.
It wont be like tat past anymore, like how we were.

2010-05-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

The hurt i have was euu who given it to me, it juz wont heal.
Is realli everything over? I am seriously very tired of all tis stuff,
i hated tis pain tat euu give me.
I feel juz too stress and too much things realli happenin to me.
I juz need a rest, juz seriously abit of time everything will do de.
I cant smile, eat and sleep well, oly wen i finish cryin i cann sleep well.
Forget it, since its over le.

2010-05-03T11:35:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. Hope is not too late.

Stay happy in life, and anything cann find me too.

I MISS EUU GUYS.

Xxian confirm got ur photo de, hahahas. I MISS EUU GUYS.

I miss the day we were so close meetin out everytime.

I miss my LaoQonq, Alt we didnt get to contact now i still hope she is fine.

Toopid, didnt see him quite long le, bope verything is fine ferr him.

Darlink, i miss euu. Euu loook so funny in tis photo Hees=B

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Bored, goin Aunt house soon, gonna shower, will be back to post in the nitex i guess.

Take care people=B

2010-05-01T17:33:00.003+08:00

I didnt break the promise i made to euu,
but euu broke it 1st, wen i talk with euu on the phone,
once i heard it, i dunno watt to say but, forget it.
Since it had past den i oso wont say anything
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Actually is goin to hospital de, but ended up some idiot say dunn wann.
Nvm, tmr is goin. Wen ferr some prayin, den wen to eat too full le.
I miss Ah gong, hope everything will be fine ferr him. God bless him always.
Reached home, do some stuff. And now ntn to do le.
I feel so tired, wil i never see him again or i will see him till the day i die?
I yesterday text a person, i ask "Are euu busy?"
He didnt reply me,
is it the relationship had realli change to something tat i am not able to imagine?
Nvm, i tink i should juz stop here ferr the moment.

2010-04-30T13:33:00.005+08:00

I LOVE EUU ALWAYS, LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE.
I try very hard to prove how much i love euu,
but i dunno if euu understand me tat much.
I juz miss euu always.
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Sorry didnt get to post yesterday due to i was at the hospital,
and reach home was late..
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TODAY
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Didnt go to skool feel so tired, maybe cuz sleep late barh.
So bored at home cann, Wake up at 12plus, eat bread and milo.
My throat so dry cann. But nvm, had a great [BREAKFAST]..
Hahahahas, wake up dam lots of message lor.
Keep on people message me cann?
Baby say he wen to my class to find me but he cant find,
Stupid Baby i oso never go skool of cuz cant find me lah =B...
Post gonna stop here people.=D
I MISS XXIAN AND KAI ALOT ALOT..

2010-04-28T20:50:00.002+08:00

Tis is a reminded to everyone, fall in love oly wen euu are ready,
not wen euu are lonely. Tis are juz nonesense wen euu are lonely.
Sometimes, i tinkin why human have to always be like tis?
Oly they are lonely will find someone, but wen day are happy and wann enjoy will oly hurt them.
Useless people and tats watt i could say oly,
hated tis kind of people, why will have tis kind of people in the world?
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TODAY
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Seriously i am dam tired these days.
Wen late ferr skool today, had a bet with Royston.
Nvm, i lose. But nvm, watt i promise i jiu will do it le.
Had my 2.4 today, i run in the mornin cuz late 5ROUNDS leh.
2.4, i use walk de heck care..
Had my lesson, and told yuejun somethings, i juz hope euu understand.
Gonna le

2010-04-27T13:04:00.002+08:00

Not everyone could make me smile or laugh, oly the right person will wen i am cryin.
Like how he make me smile wen i am on the phone with me.
Sometimes even i am moodless i see him i juz feel happy.
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Yesterday
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Didnt post due to i was superb tired.
Wen skool, mornin was kkies, but till before recess my mood not realli good.
I eat alot, ( Noodles, porriage, white white de dunno watt, Char siew pau, milo, pink doplin).
Have lots of lesson, tat stupid science, i wen outside sit, chatted with Halim,
talk talk talk, den we play with dice, hahas.
Den drop downstiars, great fun...
I dam tired, but nvm, den Yen Jue pass by go toilet, den goin back class i dam bored so walk back with him. After recess i fall down with shermaine,
Dam pain till i cant stand up, but i keep on laughin like hell,
den cant walk to the toilet, hais. Like so ps lor. Nat accompany me to the toilet,
walk from back door, funny sia, she never hold me properly,
den i fall down and lie on the floor. OMG, is like superb ps cann...
CPA test i got 21/30!!!
HAHAHAHAS after skool, take cab with xunli to northpoint meet Mummy,
den he go home, reach home sleep!!!
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TODAY
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Didnt go skool, sorry eh Baby told euu i will go de.D=, promise Lim Thong to pei him today.
Sorry eh.. Bored at home.Rottenin at home, wake up den sleep back again.
I wen to cook things, ferr them to eat, hais.
bored to the max man...
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Gonna end the post le. BYE BYE=B

2010-04-25T21:43:00.008+08:00

Tmr wont be postin i guess.

so here wishin someone happy birthday..

HAPPYBIRTHDAY, MY BELOVED AH ZHU,

18 years old le, be more matured.

Anything juz text me i will always be here ferr euu.

Alt we are nt as close as hw we were in the past,

but AH ZHU & AH PIG wont change ritex.

EUU ARE LOVE BY ME. ILY & IMY=B.

Happy celebratin ur birthday alritex.=B

2010-04-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

STAY AT TAMPINES, so didnt go hm, nw still at here....
Dunno watt time den go back..
So bored cann, i am like dam hungry lah.. hahahahas..
Tmr got skool, siann exam comin i sure get lots of U de leh...
Hais, nid to buck up le.. cant so lazy le =(..
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TODAY
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Drink abit last nitex, dunno watt time wake up..
EAT EAT EAT, cuz bored den ntn to do..
Currently watch the best star at CHANNEL 8, bored bored.
I am havin flu le dunno why..
I miss BABY, he didnt call and didnt text me oso, hais..
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XXIAN, post out to say my feelin mah.
Not like euu oso never miss me de, HAHAHAHAS..
OLY I MESSAGE EUU NIA, EUU OSO NEVER MESSAGE ME DE...
Anw take good care =B
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AH ZHU, euu too crazy le lah, where got every post??
Miss euu oso no use, euu too busy le mah, haas. Kiddin lah...

2010-04-24T19:02:00.002+08:00

Wont be updatin the photo on blog,
due to i will be at tampines and the lappy is diff...
I miss BABY, never see him ferr days le...
Didnt chat much with him tis days, his pre-paid low,
sick and no calls.
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TODAY
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I very tired, wake up early in the mornin, wen to hospital see ah gong.
Den came to RAY RAY hse to eat cuz of his daddy birthday.
I am so full... Nw usin his lappy haas, later playin mahjong & may drink i guess??
Gonna go nw le.
I MISS KAI KAI, XXIAN XXIAN.
I LOVE BABY SO MUCH..

2010-04-23T22:48:00.003+08:00

I am waitin, waitin ferr ur message, i miss euu.
I miss ur everything, i miss the day.
I miss everything & everyone.
Wen will we get to meet.
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Today wen skool as usally, did my PE, badminton [two VS one]...
Fun euu noe but tired. hahahahas.
Had my lesson i forget got watt.
After skool waited ferr Nat cuz they cant come out but i cann cuz i have my match...
Wen ferr match with ANG MO KIO SEC.
Watt i cann say is tat they are quite good, defenin & passin the ball.
I dunno why i am feel tat i am din very badly.
Lose, but nvm. Holiday will have my trainin. But as ferr now nid realli study le..
I tink i am very weak in all my subject & ferr my netball.
Realli have to do everything le, cant sleep anymore...
Post Will End Here!!! IMY & ILY BABY!!
GOOD LUCK IN UR EXAM EVERYONE..

MOOD:bad

2010-04-22T18:04:00.003+08:00

Doesn't mean i always smile & laugh means i am happy...
My heart doesn't feel well, its weird, i dunno how to explain it le....
Wen ur are gone i feel so weird, i miss euu so much.
I wann to lean on the shoulder again, i miss all the fun.
I regreted it, miss the past.
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TODAY
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Wen skool, den study i guess i did listen, cuz over tired.
My eyes closin, hated tat FCUKIN SCI teacher, actually cant say is teacher.
Cuz she dunn suit to be one cann?
Irritatin lor, if i realli get fcuked up, i cann oly say i dunn mind gettin kick out of skool cann?
I FEEL SO TIRED IN SKOOL TODAY, DIDNT SLEEP WELL AT HM.
SUCK SUCK SUCK TO THE MAX MY LIFE SUCKS.
Hais, Baby didnt come skool again, call his hse his brother say he sleepin.
Hopefully he is fine, take good care kkies. ILY ALWAYS. MUAKCSSSSS.... HAHAHAHAS...
I miss Yue Jun , juz nw call but he never ans, den nw i juz type i miss him.
Here comes his call, he is in skool playin hide-and-seek, with Yen Jue they all,
so i guess dunn disturb them le barh.
POST ENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-22T00:15:00.002+08:00

The path i have walk and i have choose, is no way of turnin back.
I feel so tired to walk tis path tat i am walkin now..
I am tryin my best to open a new path.
But nvm, hopin someone cann realli walk with me tis path.
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I REALLI MISS THE FUN WITH DARLIN & AH ZHU..
But time past people change, i tink we all wont be like how we were in the past ritex?
Misses euu both alot, I MISS EVERYONE.
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TODAY
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Wen to skool, over slept again so wen late.
Den after skool go bishan den come back yishun,
wen to get phone back ferr MUMMY.
Buy things to eat, wen hm tink around 5plus waited ferr mummy to come back.
Cuz nid go hospital, Ah Gong dunno watt happen.
So wen i cried in the sudden wen i see him, feel so pain.
Hais, but nvm.reach hm around 11.30 plus pm.
IMY KAI & XXIAN, ILY BABY.....

2010-04-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

BABY phone kana take by the father,so cant message him.
Feel so weird tat 1day never message him.
Feel lost without him, hais..
Hope Baby cann get his phone back soon lor.
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TODAY
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Didnt go skool today, miss Baby so much.
I miss XXIAN & KAI LOTS LOTS.
Seems to be like a long time tat i last meet them,
they skool reopen le, so i tink wont be able to meet them anymore i guess.
Hais, AH ZHU i juz wann to tell euu tat no matter watt euu tell me in the draft.
I understand but the way to make me feel better,
and let us be as close as how we were last time,
is to be like how we were in the past, message, webcam, chat on the phone,
meet out everytime wen we are free, to play basketball like how we were in the past.
Juz my little wish, to be how we were in the past.
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I miss all my frens, I miss my ganns, I miss Ah Zhu & Darlin alot alot.
IMY &ILY BaBy....

2010-04-19T19:05:00.004+08:00

TIRING DAY
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Wen skool, suddenly feel so tired. Isit cuz i didnt wen skool ferr 4days?
Maybe rest too much lor, After skool eat quite alot.
Den wen ferr the match VS ZhengHua, Ah Yun de ex skool. HAHAHAHAS.
Lose but i dunno watt was the score, actually is forget lah.
Anw BABY send me hm today, thanks eh DAR, =B...
Reach hm shower den eat abit, den jiu use computer watch tv.
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Anw i change song again le...
To: XUN LI, MY NUMBER IS 82222082...
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I LOVE BABY TO THE MAX

2010-04-18T18:35:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STUPID AND AH TAI

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHOO JUN AN [ STUPID ]

All the best in everything alritex, Do take good care of ur health.

Thanks alot ferr ur advice wen i ask euu.

21st BIRTHDAY. =B

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GREAT-GRANDMOTHER.

80years old plus le. Haas. She is so cute and funny sometimes.

I loves her, here wishin her last forever in the world.

Till 1000 year old, hees=B...

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TODAY
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Wake up around 11plus 12pm i guess.
Wen shower around 2pm i think.
Den reach their hse at 2.55pm, Daddy lah,
end up like no people there lor, make till i so bored....
Wen out to walk around den after cut cake wen everyone is up.
MAKAN, but i eat very little, IDIOT SHUSHU say i eat so much=.='''...
Wen in to the hse and sit, alot people leave le.
Den idiot shushu keep make me, say i [AH LIAN].
But nvm, reach hm after the party end.
Now currently bloggin, listenin to songs, sings, eatin love letter & messagin.
Ntn to do at home de.D=,
anw post will end here ferr today, BRIAN YONG IMY..

♥ HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY & 15th BIRTHDAY ♥

2010-04-16T22:11:00.010+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY WITH

BRIAN YONG.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRIAN YONG..

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BABY, IMY & ILY.

I noe euu did read my post, and i did text euu about things.

hope euu realli understand how i feel sometimes.

I'M VERY SORRY=[

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Yesterday, wen bishan help mum to do the phone.
After tat came back to yishun saw Kenneth, wei jie and their frens.
Walk away Saw NAT [Bff], and Jia Hui [Meix].
Wen to look ferr Baby birthday present, wonder watt should i buy ferr ANNIVERSARY.
But forget it, other day den look ferr it den.
Take care people=}

2010-04-16T10:00:00.002+08:00

Back to post. Yesterday didnt post due to i am sick.
Late ferr skool around 8plus reach skool,
den i 10plus jiu go home le, sick having cough, fever, bad headache and keep vomitin.
I have no energy at all, wen to see doctor,
den wen back hm sleep.
Tis mornin actually wanted to go skool but cannot.
Sian, Yesterday is Stupid birthday wanted to go but due to i am sick.
Sorry eh Stupid cant go ferr ur birthday party.
If i am not sick i confirm will go de, but juz have fun at ur party,
rmb dunn drink too much=B.
Tmr dunno goin where is Brian Yong birthday and its our 1 month Anniversary.
Sunday is Stupid and my Great-Grandmother birthday so gonna go her hse.
And as ferr monday there is skool.
Stupid, Ah Zhu and Darlin skool reopen, have fun in skool, study hard alritex?
Loves euu guys always=D...
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I realli feel so tired tat i am fallin soon, watt should i do?
Wen i am with euu dunn realli feel tat happy tat i could smile the whole day.
Sometimes i feel so tired wen ever i am with euu.
I noe watt i am sayin alritex.
Some people ask me ferr stead oso cant? Muz euu find the person?
Please lah, stop being so childish and unreasonable.
All tis are juz ur childish act, euu tink i am juz lying to euu about my brother things?
I have told euu is i heard from others but euu have to find him,
watt euu promise me euu forget? I tot i could trust euu but euu always break my trust.
Euu say i am lying ritex. Its from the start euu dunn believe me at all isn't it?
Whose shoulder could i lean on?
Euu have never show how a stead should be like, even juz my fren could understand me more den euu do. I dunn have to say out how i am feelin in my heart.
They noe how i am feel, they noe even i am laughin and i am not happy.
Could euu? Euu dunn even show how euu care me, ya Jerlin Jieh may say sometimes euu are shy and euu dunno how to show but in tis 1month i dunn see how much euu care.
Is it tat using fights cann show how much euu care me?
I dunn nid tis kind of stead if euu are everyday fightin.
If one day euu wen in cuz of tis stuff who should i lean on?
Who cann give me a hug wen i am cold?
Have euu tink if i am the one goin in watt will euu tink?
I am not goin to say much cuz i have no energy to it anymore.
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Post will end here people, take care.

2010-04-14T15:51:00.002+08:00

Parents sucks to the max, sometimes they tink they understand us very well,

but actually they dunn cuz they dunn spend time with us to understand us more.

Alt my cousin say tat they are still my parents so watt?

Ah Kor [cousin], not every parent like watt euu tink de,

maybe ur parents are but mine are not, they oly tink watt they tink is their taste,

den juz buy the things ferr us.

Sometimes they tink tat noe watt we are tinkin but they dunno,

even they say watt they noe watt is in my mind.

But tat wasnt the true, wen we say watt they say is not true,

but they will say we are lying ritex?

All tis are juz watt they tink. I had enough of all tis rubbish. (.ENDED.)

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TODAY

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Wen to skool quite late cuz wake up late,

den wen toilet to tie my hair up, Nat(BFF) lah, so late den come.

Nvm, Hall, to read stupid [WHAT'S UP]=>(New Paper.)

Cried at the hall, hais dunn feel like sayin le.

Got class, feel tat its fun today ferr lesson.

Wen to down stairs ferr PE, but MERIN CHONG never come.

Had recess, den the stupid CPA. After tat had my HOME ECON,

CooKed CURRY. After tat got the watt IT. TAT idiot teacher sucks man.

Anw, wen find Baby, den give him curry to eat.

Baby send me home and help me to carry my bag,

in the bus saw ShermaineLamCY with Thong Thong, Send her home.

Haas, anw post will end here. Day was fine juz moodless.=>

2010-04-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

Hais, my heart feel so pain.

The feelin is weird, HUANG TING HUI, NI HEN MEI YONG.

I feel so tired tat, i am goin to fall down.

I cant get up anymore, i guess if tis time i fall i cann never stand up again.

The shadow in my heart still cant get out.

I oly wish to forget, but sometimes tinkin of it is not bad.

Watt is LOVE? Love is ntn....

Gonna go le, take care people...

2010-04-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

Sorry didnt post yesterday.
Here does the question ferr today,
[If the most important person in ur life die watt will euu do?].
I am juz tinkin of tis question cuz i watch a show,
tis show makin me cry like hell cann?
Anw, i feel so weird tis days. Wen he smile to me i feel quite happy,
the shardo, of his is still in my heart.
But i am not goin to tink nw, i have my life.
Btw Ah Zhu, tat day ps eh.
Yesterday was friday, Natsuda , Jackie & me go eat den i call xxian to come down,
pass him Ah zhu de present.
After tat actually goin hm de, den Pei Nat go home,
den send her outside skool den she ask me pei her eat.
After Eat Eat Eat, Baby juz came out of white room,
he was with Sher how they all, goin to speech day.
Den i pei Nat & them, doin my homework outside the office.
The stupid art, maths and Sci. Merin Chong wanns to talk to me.
Sayin so much things end up all is about Netball.
I wann to quit but cuz of Merin chong i guess i wont be quitin
Tat stupid BITCH [ Fish Jia], sayin herself so fuckikn good in netball,
por coach and por other teacher.
Not happy come out talk lah, dunn step lah.
Tink euu are ju the fuckin vice-captian very big meh?
Pei shi is the captain if she never say anything euu tink euu cann say?
At least Jasmine attitude is alot better den euu.
So dunn fcukin step one good lah.
Anw post gonna end here. Take care people

2010-04-08T16:13:00.000+08:00

Today alot of things happen, somethings make me cry.
My gann dii kana whack, and my good fren kana caning.
Why can't things be peace? Someone promise me something but end up [INSERT NAME] ,
ended up he broke his promise.
I feel so tired in a sudden, should I rest? Hope to forget everything.
Hais, my eyes realli swollen le lah.
Anw skool was find, was quite good in the mornin, but after recess maths lesson ended.
People told me things after I cry again le. Total crying ferr today was 3 times.
Sometimes I really feel useless, watt cann I realli do? Fighting, scolding, playing, shouting & bully, I guess.
There are ntn else le barh. Tinkin and tinkin .
Anw people my maths test get (8/15). Haas, I noe is bad, but I tink
quite good le. Kkies gonna sleep le. Loves, byeeee

2010-04-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

CHARMAINE NG TING HUI,
Euu are such a loser, cann everything go back to the past?
I am a LOSER, i lose everything even someone important.
I nid some rest some times.
I am tired, cryin till my eyes swollen got watt use?
Ended le, didnt it end?
I am tinkin if watt i am doin is ritex anot.
Watt am i suppose to do now?
WATT, WATT, WATT, WATT, WATT, WATT???
HUANG TING HUI, NI SHE MENG DOU MEI YOU LE.
SHE MENG DOU MEI YOU LE.
Gone Gone Gone. LIFE SUCKS TO THE MAX..

2010-04-06T16:47:00.004+08:00

Back to post, feelin??
Stress, tired & dyin.
Now at Shermaine House, tinkin about him.
I feel tat i have lost the whole world, feel tat no one is goin to care about me.
Feel tat i have no more frens, feel tat i cant go on the live here.
Feel tat i am the oly one leavin in tis world,
GONE GONE GONE, EVERYTHING IS GONE...
SHERMAINE now sayin i very emo =.=|||.....................
We are laughin at something super funny cann...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
Now we wann to take photo end up snatchin the MIRROR..
RABBIT FAIL, goin back to home soon, love people...

2010-04-05T15:26:00.003+08:00

I showed how much i love euu, but i guess euu didnt understand me.
Some people tink i am juz play with feelin, but i am not [SERIOUSLY].
It ended everything ended, start my new life den.
EXHAUSTED, realli. I dunno how euu tink but, seriously I dunno watt to say.
I won't be postin much now le, so people do still come to my blog.
Muz tagg oh. Post will end here

LIFE SUCKS TO THE VERY MAX

2010-04-04T13:19:00.003+08:00

Things change, people change, world change, my life change too.
Why cant i change my life to something better?
Why did i choose to walk is fcukin path,
no time to U-turn back, it will oly make me feel worst ferr my past.
As ferr now, try my best to make another way infront of my life.
So tat i dunn have to walk a diff path tat make my life sucks.
I, CHARMAINE NG, 1ST TIME FELT VERY SCARED IN MY LIFE.
WHY CANT I SEE HIM WEN I AM SADD NOW, IS HE REALLI GONE FROM MY LIFE?
OR IS IT TAT WE WONT BE SEEIN EACH OTHER?
REALLI FEEL VERY LOST OF EVERYTHING, WEN WILL EUU COME AND HELP ME?
I am realli tired, dunno where to go, dunno watt to do.
Should i realli get myself out of the world?
Should i let myself forget everything?
Should i let myself get watt i nid tats all?
Or should i let evrything be like watt it is?
I guess i should get out of the world, go to somewhere tat diff from my family.
Nvm, post in endin here.

2010-04-03T18:10:00.002+08:00

I'M TIRED. REALLI VERY TIRED. SUPERB DUPER TIRED.
Dunno watt i should realli do, tired about everything.
Imperfect world, i am realli tired.
If i fail the last time i am goin away ferr him.
Realli tinkinif everything could realli be back to the past,
message everyday, message every moment,
message till we sleep, message even we quarrel.
I realli miss the days, miss all the fun, miss the time we play,
miss everything we have or do together,
the most important one is I MISS EUU.
I hope i could share all the stuff in my heart,
i hope i could have a shoulder to lean on now,
i hope i could have a listenin ear to hear watt i say,
i hope i could forget the sadd-ness, the unhappy story in my mind.
I hope to let go the pain in the fcukin heart,
how i hope i could give my frens a happy smile.
CHARMAINE NG TING HUI, HUANG TING HUI,
EUU MUZ SMILE, NI YAO XIAO, AKU BENCI MY ATTITUDE.
Fcuk care about everything.
Nvm, watt happen today?
quarrel, Wee Shin came my house to send food ferr me.
Eatin now and watchin show. Anw anyone goin SPOT DAYS ON MONDAY?
WHO CANN MEET ME GO????

2010-04-02T12:32:00.003+08:00

HERE WISHIN TIS GUY A [HAPPY BIRTHDAY]
1year older, all the best ferr ur studies.
Hope all ur wishes come true, enjoy ur day.
Take Good Care. Miss Ya=B

I am tinkin and tinkin, my head is goin to burst.
Who cann i talk to now? Who cann i trust to tell her or him watt am i stress about.
I am cryin to death ferr help? I am juz tryin to understand euu.
I juz wanted to euu more, maybe people tink i noe him alot,
but i dunno him well, i realli feel very tired.
Love realli make me suffer alot, ALOT.
Whether euu have feelin towards me anot tats still my ans, [I Love Euu].
Maybe tis may be the last i guess, i hated the feelin.
LOVE SUCKS TO THE MAX, cann i dunn be in love?
3Hugs i miss it, miss the feelin, miss the way euu hug, miss euu lot like i always.
Actually, i wann to love euu more, but i am scared it happen again.
But still i put euu in the 2nd place..
Maybe euu will tink why am i puttin euu in the 2nd place,
cuz the 1st place is leave ferr someone who is very precious in my life,
Its my god brother like i always say no one cann be the same as him,
how he treat me, how he protect me, how to cheer me.
Hopin he would realli come out soon.
Anw i still tink tat euu are someone who treat me over good,
like watt i told euu, all my ex wont send me till my house door.
Everything is diff how euu treat me,
is more den how a stead should do, as watt euu say, Good Frens mah...
anw people post is endin soon le.